I'm really TRYING to stay positive but it has been really hard. This cute snow-family photo put a smile on my face so I thought I would include it in this post. It's not my photo but a stock photo.
The snow continues to fall. We are getting hit with a lot of snow, ice, sleet, rain that then freezes, etc. I'm so over winter.
My father's childhood friend passed away the other day. Last night I stopped by to spend some time with him and mom before the Winter Storm started. While I was there - I did laundry. We had a drink in remembrance of his friend. It's so very sad that we are averaging between 1 and 2 people (that we know) that are passing on a weekly basis.
I'm revisiting my biggest fear within minutes. I'm trying to stay calm but it's not happening. I had to face this fear for the first time in over 25 years - last month - and again today. The anxiety - before, during, and after - is REAL. Post-Anxiety is something that isn't talked about much. Most people who don't understand it - bundle it up as on big anxiety attack but the feelings are different when you are trying to come down from it. Maybe one day I will be able to explain it better. For now, I'm just rambling in preparation for my own climb up - attack - and climb down.
So between the on-going winter storms, on-going COVID issues, anxiety-issues, and the number of people around us that we are losing lately...it's been rough.
Blogging is a nice distraction. Ms. Cricket has been helping with her snuggles. A guilty pleasure of mine is watching wrestling. I know it sounds a little uncharacteristic based on the blog topics but it's entertaining. I remember watching it as a kid. I was a huge fan during college. I got out of it for a while and during COVID got back into following it. It's neat to see some of the characters I grew up with and now their family members, too. Sometimes it's good for the stories and other times it's good for the comic relief. I just wish I could go shopping out of the area - which hasn't been in the card for several months. A nice vegan haul tends to help, too.
This post is just one-BIG-blab-fest, really. But I thought I would jot it down, I suppose. Something other than food, I guess. I probably won't post until Monday but I will get your comments so feel free to say HELLO. Have a good weekend!
